That One Crush...

...That Got Away. 

Recently, I noticed something about a friend of mine's posts. It was recently her birthday and I saw something. Then I saw someone I haven't seen in years. As soon as I saw the name, I'm pretty sure everything from kindergarten to middle of 2nd grade flood back into my mind as fast as it left the first time. 

This person was my first crush. And to this day, he's the one who got away. I've heard different things like 'when you're 5, you meet your soulmate' or '7th grade is the year where you find the guy you marry', but I never believe those people. 

I've had crushes since CC (I'll be calling him that just to keep his name away from everyone else) left town. He never told me he was leaving, if he did, I completely blocked it from my memory. All I remember was the day before, he wanted to hang out during lunch and recess, I did so. The next day, he was gone. 

I've been trying to find him to at least say hi to him or something but after a few years, I gave up the search and gave up on CC. I moved on, crushing and hanging out with guys who were older than I was (a year or two). But CC was always in the back of my mind every time I attempted to flirt with another guy. And he shouldn't have been. 

Sophomore year came and I was hanging out with this girl (the same girl who had a birthday) and she was dating him at the time. SW (again, personally and safety reasons) tried to keep me from wondering what was going on with him and if he remembered me. I didn't push it because I knew she liked him and I didn't want to ruin a growing friendship.

Now, it's 2014 and CC has been all I ever thing about any more. I don't know why, I don't know how, I don't know anything. Trust me, I already know. It's not healthy to think about the past and the possible future if this, that, and the other happened between now and then. I just want to say hi, but now it's kinda awkward. 

I don't just want to go and say, 'Hey Caleb! Remember me, Molly Edwards? You went to such-and-such school before you left. How are you, how are things?' You get the picture. And I don't want to friend request him because I don't know how he'd react. I SHOULDN'T Be fearing this - we used to be best friends, we still can be. It's been too long to remember each other. 

I should just message him and see what happens - probably nothing. 

That's if I don't chicken out. Which is possible. 

~Molly

Molly Rants

Today is a day I thought I'd never want to come. And it has to deal three different topics. Yes, these are my own personal opinion and I'm going to expect A LOT of hate over two of the topics probably (one, most definitely). 

1. The drama between Justin Bieber and Drake Bell fans 

• One, we cannot control what people say to each other. So what if Drake Bell (who I'm a fan of, ever since Drake and Josh) called Justin Bieber (who I downright HATE with a fiery passion) talentless? I don't give a flying fuck what is said in the celebrity community. We shouldn't either but we get right into the drama of it all because we obsess over what is said or done by our favorite people. 
• Two, you SHOULDN'T and I mean SHOULDN'T go off and THREATEN to kill people because they don't do the same thing as you do. Threatening to kill is a TOTALLY different story in any case. You SHOULD NOT even say, "I wish you were dead" or "Go kill yourself". It's dangerous, disrespectful, and downright fucking mean.
• Three, GET OFF YOUR FUCKING HIGH-HORSE AND SHUT THE FUCK UP!! Most of the people causing this drama are the ones who are 12-years-old. If you are twelve and reading this and you are a Bieber fan and don't act like you are king or queen of the world (I thank you). When you post something on the internet, you do realize it's there forever, right? 
• Four, Drake Bell really don't give a shit what you tell him because he's the BIGGER person and he's an actually role model. You don't read a lot about Drake Bell because he keeps himself out of the news as much as possible. He's probably done bad things but the news doesn't find out about it. As for Justin Bieber, he's one of the WORST influences on his fans I'VE EVER SEEN! All the things he's done — drinking and driving, drugs, more — it probably doesn't even haze him that he's causing drama within the fans he has. He's 20 while Drake is 27, Justin should not be drinking or doing drugs at 18/19/20. That's how you get addicted. 
• I feel Drake Bell is better than Justin Bieber in many, many, many ways. That's all I'm going to say on this matter for now. 

2. Little girls shopping at name brand stores

• Story: I was shopping in Aero a week ago, looking at the clearance rake (it had the PLL collection for like dirt, none of it fit sadly). I saw a blue leather jacket on the rake, looking at the sizes (an $80 leather jacket marked down to 13 bucks) when this little girl, probably 8/9/10 y/o picks it up first and gives him this look of 'what are you doing here?'. I stared right back at her, shaking her head. 
• One, why was she there? There was no way any of Aero's clothing would hit her tiny body. They don't have XXS at mine anyway and I don't think Aero makes extra, extra small. She looked so down on me as a 21-year-old shopping at that store. I personally fit better in Aero's clothes than anywhere else. I love the feel of their items.
• Two, why was she there?
• Three, is this generation so interested in name brands that they are taught if you have name brand you'll be popular or cooler than the other kids in the school? I hated name brand items until I started high school because, its high school. You want to make an impression (you really don't). I told my best friend this, Bekah and her answer was the same as mine (she didn't start buying name brand until high school). 
• Four, WHY WAS SHE THERE? And why did she want perfume? Why would a, let's say she was 10, want a perfume that she's probably not allowed to wear in elementary/middle school anyway? 
• Five, was there a reason why she needed to look down to me because I was older than she was? It was like she didn't want me there or something. It's a free country, sweetheart. And you shouldn't shopping there. 
• When and if I have kids and they want name brand clothes, I'd wouldn't allow them until they could pay for it themselves. If that means saving their allowance or saving money from other places, I still wouldn't allow them to get the high off name brand shit. Yes, it lasts longer than Wal-Mart brand or Target but who gives a fuck? I know I don't.

3. Stealing my hard-work

• I didn't mention this earlier but one of my FanFictions was stolen. It was copied word-for-word by some girl on WattPad. I've already dealt with the issue and WattPad has taken down the story because it was mine to begin with. Now, I wish I was on WattPad earlier to catch this bitch before hand. 
• As soon as I found out, I knew it was my work as soon as I saw it. I tried to get into contact with the 'author' but she never responded until recently and can I say she needed spelling and grammar help like yesterday. It was...it was terrible. Truly terrible. 
• I got an apology, but I faked one back because I can't take back what she did. What she did was wrong and personally I don't think I could just say I accept that apology without a single care in the world. How can you go back from that? There's no way of me making a copyright symbol or a simple ~MEE~ after it because it's already been done and the story she took from me has been a few years old now. There's no point. 
• But thank God, FanFiction and WattPad have a new feature so no one can take stories from anyone - no copying work. :) That's just great! 

Enough of my rants and vents, time to get ready for Arrow and the 100! 

~Molly

Explanation

I've been gone without an explanation and the only reason is that I was getting tired of constant reactions to shows when my reaction is the same for everything. Sure, sometimes it seems like I'm shocked but really I'm just like 'I saw that coming or really?'

Not everything you read on the internet is legit. 

I will be back with my reactions for finale season. 

May 4th - Resurrection

May 11th - Once Upon a Time (for the FULL 2hrs)

May 12th - Star-Crossed

May 13th - The Originals

May 14th - Arrow

May 15th - Vampire Diaries

May 16th - Grimm (possibly)

May 20th - Supernatural (I'll most likely be doing the final 4 episodes of S9)

June 11th - The 100

As for premieres:

April 14th - Warehouse 13

June 10th - PLL 

Until next time,

~Molly

Resurrection - Pilot

I don't know much about this show but it looks rather interesting. I'm going to reaction the pilot and most likely the finale. I don't know how much I'll react to so, this will be interesting. 

It kinda reminds me of 4400 - if you guys remember that show but they did die and we don't know if they have any powers. 

Now on with the show!

9:00 - We start with the little boy who died, waking up in...I think it's China.
9:01 - This is going to hard to explain. How is no one raising an eyebrow at the kid right now? Like seriously? He doesn't look like them. 
9:02 - Well, now they see him. Nice going. It's Kim from EUReKA. "It's a kid." 
9:03 - "Who knows?" That's too early, look a little more bad in time my friends.
9:04 - He likes Donkey Kong.
9:05 - Arcadia. Nice. That was a bit rude. 
9:06 - It's odd not seeing people with iPhones in TV shows now. But that's just me. "You owe me big time." 
9:07 - Arcadia must look the same as normal to him, with some minor improvements. 
9:08 - Aww, Jacob is about to be reunited with his parents. Ain't no chainsaw, sir. "Why?" "I have him." 
9:09 - "My son died 32 years ago." "Frog in a bender." "Daddy!" "Jacob?" 

Commercial Break 

9:13 - Jacob's backstory. The kid really likes Donkey Kong apparently, and doesn't seem too upset around the phone. 
9:14 - This kid is so adorable! "You look different." Jacob's like, 'what is my mommy doing?' 
9:15 - The picture is him.
9:16 - "Hi Uncle Fred." OH SHIT! WHAT'S HAPPENING TO HIM?! 
9:17 - This kid! He's so cute! I bet he doesn't have a heartbeat. For a moment or so.
9:18 - "You look like my Aunt Barbra." 
9:19 - Oh, more to the story than they are leading on. Shit. And there's our other returnee. 

Commercial Break 

9:24 - "But I need more time." They aren't going to remove the boy. HEY! IT'S MARK!! I FUCKING LOVE HIM!!
9:25 - "Of course he has." 
9:26 - I like the mom, I really do. Oh, everyone seems to know Jacob. "Did I die?" "What?" "Did we all die?"
9:27 - Jacob knows something's up. 
9:28 - She looks familiar. I don't know who she is though. 
9:29 - "Doesn't make it any easier." Your father is a dick, that's the best thing I can say right now. He is a down right bastard. 
9:30 - It's the same kid! 

Commercial Break

9:36 - Apparently so. "You ever look at that before?" "No."
9:37 - Why is this church so...white? So bright? "What happened?" 
9:38 - Now you believe the boy.
9:39 - Like no one saw that one coming. Each returnee much know each other or something. 
9:40 - Thinking about his son as the cop goes after him. 
9:41 - He's never gone.

Commercial Break

9:45 - Jacob is looking for something, what? Interesting, an old toy. 
9:46 - "As long as you don't run away again." 
9:47 - "Do what you have to do." 
9:48 - I'm loving the backstory of Jacob and how everyone got the story wrong. 
9:49 - "Nothing." "Nothing at all?" "I woke up." "Are you going to take me away?" 
9:50 - He is going to 100% theirs. 
9:51 - "You believed." Well, in 32 years, there's probably just bones and other things. 
9:52 - When is Tom going to 'meet' is fiancée again? I want him to meet her again. As everyone see Jacob and his mom come into the church. 
9:53 - She obviously doesn't care what people think. And here's our priest who doesn't know what's going on. Just like everyone else. 
9:54 - Oh shit. Nice way of telling your brother that. 
9:55 - Aren't we going to meet the rest of the returnees? That's what I call them, sorry. And here we go. 
9:56 - Nice to lie to your boss. "And he's got a gun." 
9:57 - Here's number two. "It's okay." "Dad?" 
9:58 - Can't wait to find out what's going on here. 

I'm leaving you here. 

~Molly

Once Upon a Time - Midseason Premiere - New York City Serenade

Guess what's back, Oncers? ONCE UPON A TIME is back!! God, you don't know much you miss a show until it comes back WAY after your others. As much as I didn't enjoy the beginning of the season but I know I'll like the remaining season. 

It's been a long time since I've written reactions, but I'm back and better than ever! 

8:00 - One Year Ago - shit. Look, there's Charming on a horse!! Oops, not Charming, but Prince Phillip and Aurora in the heart of the storm. 
8:01 - Welcome the people of Storybrooke to the Enchanted Forest. "Snow, what happened?" "We're back."
8:02 - One Year Later, Our World. Emma has a new boyfriend and it's Auggie from Covert Affairs. What's with the accent there for a moment? "Thank you for your help." I SAW RED'S NAME IN THE GUEST STAR LIST!! 
8:03 - I can't wait to find out who Chris plays in Emma's new world. "You! You are a stalker!" Let's hold a butter knife while Hook talks. 
8:04 - "You're a crazy person." GOD! I LOVE COLIN!! "I know you, Swan." 
8:05 - "Do it for your family." "I protected it." 
8:06 - "You can't be serious?" Of course she's serious, Regina. You are just an idiot for not believing in her. 
8:07 - "It is not up to us to save them." OH! HE'S GOING TO PROPOSE TO HER?! HOLY SHIT!! BUT WHO IS HE?! WHO DOES HE PLAY?! I WANT TO FUCKING NOW!! TELL ME!! RIGHT NOW!!
8:08 - And they would put a commercial there...

Commercial Break 

8:10 - What did she say? Oh, she walked out. 
8:11 - He's more than he's leading on. I like him but I want to know who the hell he's playing and why he's so into Emma.
8:12 - Emma, go to where Hook told you to go. He's name is Walsh, good to know. 
8:13 - Oh, Henry likes Walsh. Henry makes some sense in the matter. 
8:14 - A king, cute. Wait, didn't Archie have a REAL voice? 
8:15 - "And what if you can't?" 
8:16 - "I've always been a pirate." "A complete reset." Then how did Hook do it? 
8:17 - "I am thinking, there's a difference." 
8:18 - Where did Hook tell her- oh, shit...Neal's old place. The dreamcatcher. 
8:19 - What is meant to find? Henry had a camera with him?

Commercial Break 

8:23 - Central Park, fun! 
8:24 - "Your parents need you." I really liking this Emma. 
8:25 - "It was a kiss." Let's just arrest Hook! Really, Emma? For real? 
8:26 - I like how the camera never pans down on Snow since she is pregnant. "We were worried." 
8:27 - Snow and Regina moment, cute. Will Regina EVER meet Robin Hood? 
8:28 - "Find a way. For Henry." It is sad seeing Regina sad. Our castle? 
8:29 - "It did!" A flying monkey! 

Commercial Break 

8:32 - REGINA! Good Snow! 
8:33 - "I'm open to suggestions." ROBIN HOOD! 
8:34 - What is Emma wearing? What are those pants she has on? Definitely not for her. 
8:35 - She got the pictures developed. And Hook is set free. 
8:36 - Emma, just drink the liquid. You just broke Hook for a moment there, Emma. 
8:37 - There it goes! And she's remembering! "Hook." "Did you miss me?" HELL YEAH!

Commercial Break 

8:42 - How does Robin Hood know everyone? 
8:43 - Regina is eyeing Robin Hood! AH CUTE!! Tink was right! Well, you aren't getting to the castle. 
8:44 - "Someone highjacked it." "We'll make it safe again." "A pirate's life." 
8:45 - Again. "I came back to save you." "A really good dream."
8:46 - Damn, so we going to have non-memory remembered Henry, joy. And Walsh isn't going to like this. But I have an thought - what if Hook knows him? 
8:47 - "I can't marry you." "That wasn't a lie." Someone she kissed. 
8:48 - Or take Walsh with you. WHAT THE HELL WAS HE?! "Really?" 
8:49 - He's a flying monkey! "A reminder I was never safe." "We leave in the morning." 

Commercial Break - We're going to see Walsh again. I just have a strong feeling. 

8:54 - "Do you believe in magic?" "I made the right decision." 
8:55 - "Sold." "You ready Swan?" "Wait, we're really going?" 
8:56 - The Emma jacket! She's Emma again! Storybrooke looks...slight different. "That's more like it." 
8:57 - This won't end well, at all. "You remember."
8:58 - What happened? "Wiped away?" Snow is pregnant, isn't she? Yep. 
8:59 - The Wicked Witch of the West is here everyone! Why revenge? 

Well, OUAT came back with a BANG!! 

~Molly

UPDATE

Just a little updating time. 

I just wanted to let you all know that no, I'm not quitting my reactions, I'm just stopping them for a while until I feel I can start them again.

I'm getting tired of writing reactions as they go on. I just need a long break until I feel like doing them again. By the time Hell Week comes around, I'm be ready again. 

Star-Crossed - Pilot

I really don't know anything about Star-Crossed besides it's about aliens and humans and probably takes place in the future some time. I'm not entirely sure how I'm going to enjoy it - it is different from the other shows I watch. I don't normally watch alien shows, and I kinda don't have a lot of hope for this show. 

I don't know what else to say, so...on with the show. 

8:00 - And creepy music plays. Definitely takes place in the future when the aliens arrive in 2014! 
8:01 - Let's just shoot first, ask questions later. Really? Have they learned anything? Aliens bleed red, so, part human?
8:02 - What kind of medicine? 
8:03 - She's going to meet one of the aliens. So, they met when they were kids, huh? Love how kids just enter and exit at will in these drama on the CW.
8:04 - Poor little kid, just wanting to go home. And he's eating Mac 'n' Cheese. 
8:05 - Even at a young age, the kids have those markings. All the kid wanted was a friend. 
8:06 - And the girl is now a teenager and cops going passed her. 
8:07 - So the girl was in the hospital. But, hey, HI ANNA! 
8:08 - "I'm really glad you got better." What happened to her I wonder. 
8:09 - People are fucking idiots, aren't they? 
8:10 - Is this like a Tony Stark school or something? If so, SIGN ME UP!! And the aliens are entering the school and the kid alien grew up as well. 
8:11 - Aww, he remembers her. "I think it just did." 

Commercial Break - Okay, let's get the characters straight (for my sanity): Emery (Aimee T.), Roman (Matt L.), Julia (Malese J.), Lukas (Titus M. Jr.), Grayson (Grey Damon), Taylor (Natalie H.), Teri (Chelsea G.), Drake (Greg F.), and Sophia (Brina P.). 

8:15 - Ground rules, joy. I WANT TO BE IN THAT SCHOOL! 
8:16 - "It's up to you to prove them wrong." "Or worse, glee club." 
8:17 - I never liked Grey ever since Nine Lives, sorry. Oh, let's just change the pledge. 
8:18 - I like Roman. 
8:19 - Wait, is that...that's Lydia's mom and Tyler's mom? How many shows is she fucking on?! 

Commercial Break - It's...okay...so far...

8:25 - She thinks he's dead? She thinks he's dead! 
8:26 - I really want to go to this Tony Stark school! Just go away blondie. 
8:27 - So, we find out why she's there. 
8:28 - "Joking." I like Matt, she's cute. I LIKE ROMAN'S SARCASM!! 
8:29 - Look at that, Roman's not afraid of jocks. "And you didn't tell me?" 
8:30 - So Julia has cancer, and I'm going to assume that the aliens can help her. 
8:31 - This won't end well.

Commercial Break - Okay, it's starting to become interesting. I'll continue watching it because I'm actually enjoying it. Finally something else on Monday since I'm not really watching Hart of Dixie. 

8:34 - Oh, this is cool. I like the aliens home.
8:35 - Where's Roman when you need him. Oh, a fight broke out and now everyone is fleeing because of it. 
8:36 - It would work that way. And Roman came to rescue. Is this like weed?
8:37 - I like Julia!
8:38 - SO THEIR TIMELORDS!! HAHAHA "You were kind." 
8:39 - "Julia...I'm sorry." "That's my sister." Roman! 
8:40 - Never piss off Roman. 

Commercial Break - It is already pass the 30 minute mark? Where did the time go?

8:45 - "And I'm the animal?" Can we just talk about Matt's eye color for a moment? It's awesome! 
8:46 - Who the hell are you, blondie? And Emery lost her chance to talk to Roman. 
8:47- "These things take time." Apparently 10 years of time.
8:48 - What does Teri want? Yeah, that's exactly what Roman wanted to hear. 
8:49 - They use American currency. And off Roman goes to try and stop his friends from killing anyone. 
8:50 - Can we not? 
8:51 - "Come on, she chose a total freak!" 

Commercial Break 

8:54 - Definitely far from the cops. 
8:55 - In high school, people are dicks, bitches, and worse. We already starting the love story, in episode one? Nope, apparently not - well, actually... Nope, phone blocked.
8:56 - Please tell me Julia isn't dead. Please. She's either dead or dying. Or unconscious. 
8:57 - Oh, Roman followed her. And he's going to help her, he's perfect. HOLY SHIT! 
8:58 - What is that? NO NOT ROMAN'S DAD!!! And I think Roman saved Julia. 
8:59 - You just killed the leader of the aliens, dude. You'll be totally destroyed. 

I'll see you next week with more reactions. 

~Molly