Saturday, August 02, 2014

High School #1

As I was making a fruit salad, I was thinking about high school and wishing I had someone I could ask questions to (preferable a girl at least two years old than I was) about high school or middle school. 

As I thought, I came up with an idea. Writing out what I did in high school to basically survive it. Every one is different - I actually liked school, especially high school. It was really a lot of fun, depending on how you look at it. 

One of the big things that came up in my high school life was if I was anoxic - I'm not. But people thought I was, including my mom at one point. She didn't come right out and say, "Molly, are you starving yourself?" or anything like that. But I heard the comments being made from my mom to my best friends about how I wasn't eating as much as I was before. 

I'm a tall girl, at least 5'11". I'm about 120 to 130. I'm perfectly healthy girl, even in school. 

But I saw where my mom was coming from. I wasn't eating as much as I used to. I was a pig when I came home, I was a bottomless pit on a good day. But as soon as sophomore year hit, that bottomless wasn't as hungry as normal. And it had to deal with my lunch schedule. 

I had the last period of lunch - 8th period, thankfully my school was smart and got rid of it - so, I didn't have lunch until like 1 o'clock while everyone else was eating at 10:30 to 12:30. By the time 8th period lunch came around, I wasn't hungry because the food wasn't as hot or there weren't enough snacks for the students to get that period. 

Since then, my school has gotten rid of 8th period lunch - realizing how much harm that could actually do to someone, someone like me. I'm skinny, but not starving myself. I was born that way. When I eat, it goes to my hips and ass. Yes, I'm skinny but I also have boobs and an ass. 

I know girls would kill for my body - I seem to have the perfect body. I heard that so many times when I would be in gym or doing musical rehearsal. I don't have the perfect body. My t-shirt cover my stomach that I'm not comfortable with to show unless it is in a bikini. I don't wear crop-tops, I don't like to show off my stomach. 

What I like to show off are my legs. I have long legs! And I've come to the realization, I don't have a tight gap that everyone think is perfect. It's not perfect. Tight gaps aren't cute. So please don't worry about if you have one or not. It isn't cute. 

If a teacher comes up to you and asks if you are eating, just say yes and tell them why you didn't eat lunch - either you forgot money for lunch or you left your lunch at home or the options wasn't up your alley today. That happened to me a bunch of times - I'd go to lunch, expect one thing but it was something completely different. 

I used to be called a stick in high school by my friends - I knew I was skinnier compared to them. They would tease me about eating in freshmen and sophomore year. Looking back now, I didn't feel I was too skinny for a freshmen-senior, I was perfect the way I was. I had a nice pair of lungs on me, I have vocal cords that could keep up with the high soprano notes, I had long legs to keep up with the dancing for the musicals, and I have her personality that you'd only see if I was your friend. 

If you think one of your friends or classmates may not be eating right, do go to a teacher - maybe a health teacher or anyone who you think will listen to you. I haven't met anyone who was starving themselves in high school but I knew a lot of kids didn't eat the lunch at my high school because...urg...such terrible lunches. 

With no good options. 

I'm a pollo vegetarian who if her body craves it, eats red meat (like hot dogs and bacon). But I mainly eat a vegetarian life-style. My school sucked at that - never having vegetarian besides a salad. Sure, that's what I want, a salad that has been sitting there for how long now? 4, 5 hours? I'll skip lunch today. 

School lunch isn't good or appetizing, I know. But if you know you like something like say, Pizza Day or Taco Day, make sure you get to lunch first and get your meal before it is completely cold and disgusting. I tried to run from my last class to lunch. It helped that I have 5th period lunch freshmen year, they were just putting out the food. 

So don't worry about being overly skinny. If you are in middle school, you'll still grow. According to my previous doctor, I would stop growing at 5'5" - nope, try again. I didn't stop growing until I was in my senior year. Every person is different. Everyone develops at different rates. You will full-out as soon as you graduate, so don't worry. 

Just have fun with high school or middle school. Find things you like - sports, musicals, band, chorus, clubs. Find something. You won't believe how many after school clubs there are. 

~Molly 

3 years out of High School and counting

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