I say this line every time but, 'If you looked at me, you'd never know I have...' an anxiety issue. I'm not quite sure if it is a disorder, I don't remember being 'labeled' with it but it doesn't mean I don't have it and right now, my anxiety is at the max it can be and I feel like exploding.
I was pretty okay this morning. I woke up, get my breakfast, surfed Tumblr, WattPad, and Quotev. I was having a pretty good morning. Then I told myself I wanted to redecorate my room a bit. I have these books on the floor by my TV (I should have listened to my mother) and I didn't think anything of it.
My cat, Hatter (who hasn't been fixed yet) has a habit of peeing where he's not supposed to. And this was one of those places. The books I had on the ground, probably worth over 100 bucks right there, four out of the seven were destroyed with cat pee.
One I was most sad about (actually crying over) was my Supernatural book that costs like 50 bucks and I got it dirt cheap. I literally started balling over the fact that my precious Supernatural book was destroyed by Hatter. And I mean, destroyed. I don't know when he did it but I had no other place for my books. There was a reason why they were near the TV, to stop Hatter from getting back there but it didn't stop him.
My mom did order me another but that's not the point of this.
Anxiety can get me at any time and I can't stop it from happened. I've tried in the past but I just can't stop the moments from happening. Personally, I don't mind because it means people stop taking to talk to me or they just leave me alone. I like being alone when I have an attack - my attacks aren't as bad as others I know - and crying it out helps me. It probably won't help you.
My attacks are the typical attacks you think of. I don't have shortness of breath or feel like I can't move. I just need to cry and let it all out.
I just learned that Chris Evans has anxiety - props to him. I knew there was a reason why I love him. He's Captain America if you didn't know and I'm pretty sure he was in X-Men too. But I now know of a celebrity who suffers from anxiety (not that others don't, I just don't know any others) and I know look up to him, seeing what he can do with anxiety and having thousands of fans.
Thinking about how I've said in the past and others said to me, I'd make a fantastic actress. I wouldn't be able to handle the crowds of fans and interviewers. I'm find with cameras in my face, performing under pressure, but the crowds, questions, screaming fans, I'd be a anxiety mess.
I don't know how Chris does it. And another reason why I love him. As an actor, of course.
Anxiety for me sucks - I get massive headaches at the end. And mine is just coming on now.
~Molly
I was pretty okay this morning. I woke up, get my breakfast, surfed Tumblr, WattPad, and Quotev. I was having a pretty good morning. Then I told myself I wanted to redecorate my room a bit. I have these books on the floor by my TV (I should have listened to my mother) and I didn't think anything of it.
My cat, Hatter (who hasn't been fixed yet) has a habit of peeing where he's not supposed to. And this was one of those places. The books I had on the ground, probably worth over 100 bucks right there, four out of the seven were destroyed with cat pee.
One I was most sad about (actually crying over) was my Supernatural book that costs like 50 bucks and I got it dirt cheap. I literally started balling over the fact that my precious Supernatural book was destroyed by Hatter. And I mean, destroyed. I don't know when he did it but I had no other place for my books. There was a reason why they were near the TV, to stop Hatter from getting back there but it didn't stop him.
My mom did order me another but that's not the point of this.
Anxiety can get me at any time and I can't stop it from happened. I've tried in the past but I just can't stop the moments from happening. Personally, I don't mind because it means people stop taking to talk to me or they just leave me alone. I like being alone when I have an attack - my attacks aren't as bad as others I know - and crying it out helps me. It probably won't help you.
My attacks are the typical attacks you think of. I don't have shortness of breath or feel like I can't move. I just need to cry and let it all out.
I just learned that Chris Evans has anxiety - props to him. I knew there was a reason why I love him. He's Captain America if you didn't know and I'm pretty sure he was in X-Men too. But I now know of a celebrity who suffers from anxiety (not that others don't, I just don't know any others) and I know look up to him, seeing what he can do with anxiety and having thousands of fans.
Thinking about how I've said in the past and others said to me, I'd make a fantastic actress. I wouldn't be able to handle the crowds of fans and interviewers. I'm find with cameras in my face, performing under pressure, but the crowds, questions, screaming fans, I'd be a anxiety mess.
I don't know how Chris does it. And another reason why I love him. As an actor, of course.
Anxiety for me sucks - I get massive headaches at the end. And mine is just coming on now.
~Molly
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