Worried, Scared, Upset

Lexington "Lexi" Cynnamon Edwards was fine up until a couple of days ago. Just thought she was being picky because she's my cat and I'm very picky about my food. But as the hours went on before and after dinner, Lexi became more sluggish and not that active. 

I just tried her laser pointer and nothing. This makes me incredibly sad. And there's nothing I can do. We have no money to take her to the vet and find out what's wrong with my Kitten. 

I shouldn't be looking at answers on the web, they just make me more upset than I already am. I don't know what's wrong with my Kitten and it worries me. 

I'm worried.

I'm scared.

I'm upset.

I can't lose another cat, not now. Not my Kitten. We've already lost too many cats in the past 2 years (2012 and 2013) and I could barely handle it. 

I just...I just can't lost my Kitten. 

We have no money to get Lex to the vet, if we can't afford to get our two little boys neutered, then there's certainly no money for a dozen tests that could cost over $1,000. There's no way. We two car payments because we got a new car, my mom's medical things, Ian only getting a certain amount from his best friend's store. We are VERY tight on money.

We love our vet though, he's really great with the animals. And normally it wouldn't cost us an arm and a leg but with money how it is in my house, it's more like "Here, take my head as payment".

I don't even know if Lexi is drinking anything. I haven't been keeping an eye one her until now. But since she didn't go bonkers over the laser pointer, I know something is wrong. 

It doesn't look like she's in pain. Just sleepy and not eating. 

Enough of depressing myself over this because I need to be happy. I can't be sad, I can't be upset. Plus I need to make sure I look like I haven't been crying when my mom comes home at noon. 

So, me, stop crying. Make your tea and get your yogurt. Just keep a close eye on Lexi and try not to break down through the day. I can't show that I'm upset.

A less depressing blogpost next time.

~Molly

UPDATE: Not any better, she didn't eat last night. I cried more. A vet visit is going to happen on Monday if the vet likes it or not. They really prefer scheduled appointments but this is my Lexington we're talking about. I need her better.

UPDATE: Kitten ate a little bit. One mouthful but it's something.

UPDATE: Mom still wants Lex to go to the vet tomorrow, which is totally cool. Today, Lexi was responding more to her name and nicknames, eating and drink a little more, and playing with a toy! Plus she was doing her tail twirl thing! It kinda reminds me of a pug tail when she does it! It was great to see Lexi being more active and less tired. Yet, she is sleeping right now because of the 'intense' playing. 

UPDATE: Lexi is completely fine! Nothing serious, thank the Lord! No more kitties needing to be put to sleep. All it was, was that she's constipated. *sigh of fucking relief*