Holy Shit, That Was Scary!!

It was early morning when I woke up suddenly. It felt like someone was attacking me.

My heart was racing, my breath was shallow. I felt like I was going to pass out. It hit me like a ton of bricks and I have no idea what caused it. 

I had my first panic attack or an anxiety attack. I don't have anxiety, and now going through one - I never want to experience that ever again! It was fucking scary! I couldn't breath, I was so hot and sweat, and I don't know what set it off. It had to be something I was dreaming about, but I don't remember any of my dreams. 

All I knew was that my mom was asleep and I was completely panicked. It wasn't something I knew was going to happen. I'll say it again, I don't have anxiety attacks - I normally cry and run away and go mute if I'm stressed or upset about something. 

It was not pleasant and I never want to go through it again. I was so fucking scared but it only lasted like 4-5 minutes and I was able to slow my heart down and control my breathing again. 

No idea what triggered it, or what I dreamt about that caused me to have that type of panic. It seemed so real, and it wasn't a dream. 

I know this will sound too TMI - but I was fucking hot and sweaty, I had to take my PJ bottoms off because my legs were sticking to my pants. It wasn't pleasant. 

I'm sorry if you deal with anxiety. 

I'll update you guys if it happens again

~Molly